Lost

Often, TV is really a mirror of life’s realities. In the TV series, “Lost”, Sun, the Korean female character just found out that she was pregnant, although it was medically impossible for her husband to help create a baby. “It’s a miracle” he says as Sun breaks the news.

This is not about Lost, the TV series. This is about how we “lost” the miracle of Christian Gabriel… or CG as Chief would fondly call our baby.

Last Saturday, 10 June 2006, at Asian Hospital, Dra. Desquitado confirmed that we had indeed lost our baby… our first baby. She said, “I am really very sorry.”

There was really nothing more she could say. We had slowly accepted the reality a week earlier that we had lost CG. A first ultrasound last week had showed no heartbeat. A complete reversal from the pumping 125 beats per minute we saw from a 6-week-old fetus just a week earlier.

Last Tuesday, a second ultrasound had just reconfirmed what we had already seen and known. We "lost" CG.

Chief and I had gone through a few “lost” steps of our lives. In 2001, while we were still living in Saigon, my dad suddenly died. A year later, Lola Alice had died too. Last year, it was Ninong Dan Gabutina, (Dad Gabutina’s older brother) died of cancer of the pancreas (?). This year, Tito Nick Cruz, husband of Tita Eva (eldest sister of Dad Gabutina) passed away.

And now. our own flesh and blood, CG had been “taken away.” The Lord has HIS reasons. Chief and I trust that CG is “lost” for the greater glory of God. Truly, God works in mysterious ways.